I don’t really know what to talk about. I normally have an idea of what I might talk about but today has been a bit of a blank day. I’m very tired so that’s probably not helping either.

I took me ten minutes to come up with the first lines of this blog. That’s not good. I have such a taste of blood in my mouth it’s getting very irritating I bit the inside of my lip and it’s been bleeding for a while now. I usually like the taste of blood I don’t know why, I like sucking cuts and stuff but when its lingering it’s just not the best.

I was thinking a bit today about relationships, I was sitting on a bench outside the toilets of St.Stephen’s Green Shopping Centre and the old gentleman in my picture came out of the toilet and waited for his wife over at the window. She was gone for a while, he stood and waited for her without turning around once to see if she was coming out he just waited. My brother was there with me and commented on how he was dressed, he was very sharp he was quite old late 70’s I’d say. We both like to see older people take care of themselves and dress well. He just waited for her looking out the window. I sat looking at him as my brother talked away about him and the other people around us. I decided to take a photo of him. I don’t know if I ever want to be the person that waits for someone else or the person who is waited on. I haven’t felt like wanting someone in my life like that for a long time now. I don’t know what I like in a person that causes me to be attracted to them really, I know I like argumentative people, but I am an argumentative person too so relationships don’t normally work out very well. Something just clicks in me when I meet a person I want to be with and that hasn’t clicked in a long time. I sabotage myself, I look for things in people to make me dislike them. I don’t like to lose people from my life so I guess if I don’t get anyone new and try my hardest to keep the ones I have I’ll be happy. I think everything that lingers in the one place too long becomes stagnant. I don’t want to be that way. I don’t want to be just with one person just in one job just have one purpose in life I want it to be eventful with new experiences. Tho saying that I want new experiences to be with old friends. I want to spend my time with them. The people I have in my life now are wonderful and I am so privileged to have them.

I don’t want to wake up some morning and have a bitter taste in my mouth because I lingered too long. I want it all to be fresh and new.